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Wow, thank you so much for all the replies!! It may not mean much to you, but for me its like a light in the dark night. I read all of your replies and it was nice to hear that many of you have fought your way through depression. About medication, I don't think that is necessary, its not severe. To be honest, the thought of suicide has not even crossed my mind, I am just worried that I will waste my life in a puddle of sadness. It makes me even sadder to think that a young 12-year old is already struggling with what seems to be depression. But also, I was happy to know that you are satisfied with my decision to talk with my best bud. This might sound a little silly, but I am more comfortable talking with my BFF than with my friend. Why? I have no idea. Maybe it is because I'm afraid my parents will freak out and demand a counselor, no matter how much I tell them that I have no intentions of killing myself. Maybe it is something else. Anyways, thank you all so much, thank you for being the beam of light in my dark sky.

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  1. OMG BACON!!

    "...talking with my BFF than with my PARENT," not friend sorry.

  2. Pii

    Hugs to you, Bacon. We're here for you!

  3. Minkey

    whoot, I'm "mentally" sending you a little firefly! I fully understand the parents thing. It never matters that parents were once twelve because they see things from their current perspective which means reflecting on what it felt like at your age is really only looking back from where they are now, not truly remembering what it was like. Probably makes no sense but it is like that cliche "hind sight is always 20/20". Same thing. It helps having someone you know, trust and feel a connection to without worrying about judgement. It is kind of scary, but it is also part of your age--I was a nightmare from about 14 to 19, all hormones and amazingly wild emotions that, looking back, didn't really make any sense (not saying that for you, just saying that because I really was out of control in many non-sense ways). I wish I knew then what I know now, kind of, not really. Parents do freak out, it is true, but only because they love you. I tried the counseling thing, at their request, and (thank god or the giants or...) he was so understanding and after listening to me explain how I get through my shit my own way, he explained it to my parents and told them he felt confident I could work it out on my own and I never had to go back. I like working things out my own way. Some don't. I think working things out with your friend's help is going to be a very positive experience for you. Feel free to write anytime or just say hello. :)

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  4. zoesera

    Keep up the talking and communicating with your friends. Try and make sure you get some daily outdoor exposure to natural daylight. If you live in an area where Vitamin D (from sunlight) is scarce, talk to your doctor about possibly doing some supplementation. You are taking good steps.

  5. Fernstream

    *hugs* to you. You wont waste your life sad, im sure of that. You'll come out on the other side of this puddle and dance in... rainbows of bacon or something. Good job planning to talk to your best friend- sounds like the perfect thing to do! And thanks for being a friend to me.

  6. TransplantedEntwife

    I am a person often encompassed in that long, dark night of General Anxiety Disorder and you are in my thoughts/prayers. Keep talking, keep hoping, and know you are not alone my friend. <3

  7. kastlin

    Lots of people (kids and adults) are more comfortable talking with a friend than a parent. And just so you know, you don't have to be suicidal for a counselor and/or medication to be warranted/helpful. Not saying you need those, just don't ignore them. {{{hugs}}}

  8. plou

    I have found some good wisdom here: I recommend the Mark Williams talk on mindfulness, because although somewhat dry and longish, includes some thoughts about depression (first episodes happening earlier and earlier in adolescent year, for example) and also some practical ideas for combatting it.

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Hugs to you, Bacon. We're here for you!

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