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Hab
I don't know if you'll even read this, Battra, as it was posted 9 hrs ago - I'm finding there are less and less of us here... I'm guessing for many of the reasons you have said. I don't know where to go from here. Yes, I am engaging in the outside world, but there is just a DAMN BIG hole in my heart where Glitch used to be, and I can't seem to fill it. *crying now, damn it* Not that I haven't tried, - tried every single game everyone has suggested and it just left me empty. What's worse, is that I did not TRULY completely appreciate what it meant to me until it was gone. I didn't realize just how many ways it completed my life and made me happy and tickled me and amused me and interested me and challenged me. And what is really, REALLY sad is that I don't know how to make that happen in RL. I just don't. *crying harder* I don't know how to find the happiness of leaping everywhere - the beauty of flying through a ring of clouds - the joy of jumping off a cliff over and over just for the fun of it - the loveliness of hugging a tree and having them say something sweet or silly back to you - the sweetness of petting a piggy and having him wiggle in delight - the amazingness of singing with a Giant, etc, etc, etc. I could go on forever. I can't find a replacement for this wonderful place - I feel like part of me DIED. I know that sounds silly and melodramatic, but it is the truth, and I can't tell a soul except all of you, because no one else can possibly understand the place of wonder this was. So, I understand what you are saying about packing it away for your sanity. I think that is what I do every day except for the few minutes that I log in here each day. I just can't let that bit go, yet. Probably not until the end. Best of luck to you as well, my dear Battra. We had the BEST of times - all of us. (((HUGS)))
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Brib Annie
Hab, you put into words the way I feel. Every time I get to where I think I am adjusting, something makes me fall apart again. I have also tried several games, some very good and all with Glitch refugees but not one has said to me, "I am the one for you!". I hope that maybe I will find a "home" someplace soon as I miss this so very much. Thanks to everyone here who made my life brighter and happier!
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Shmoopie Kerfuffle
OMG. You just said everything that I FEEL. I keep coming back here, and thinking I wish I were more articulate so that I could say something as beautiful as this, but I am realizing with your post and Battra's post that I can't say it because getting in touch with those feelings is just too damn painful. And you're right, we come back here because nobody but other Glitchen can understand the agonizing misery we feel. It doesn't get any better...I don't feel like a part of me has died, I feel like a very dear and precious friend has died. And it says something very sad about our society, that we have to resort to fantasy to feel real joy because we can't find it in our real lives.
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